a long time coming

i cant remember the last time i wrote a blog post. so much has been going on in my life since the last time i wrote here. i got a new job, moved from brooklyn to the suburbs and even got engaged. yeah i know a lot of big changes. lucky for me i love change. i am one of those people who will rearrange a room every two weeks. for some reason seeing the same thing over and over again just doesn't cut it for me. when i was single living in brooklyn alone i would make something different for dinner every night. the feeling of change is orgasmic to me. i like change.

so im getting married. seems a bit far off for me. sounds crazy but i never say myself as a wife. i spent the better part of my early twenties convincing myself that i would never get married and now look where i am. scared shitless. dont get me wrong i love my fiance and look forward to being his wife. however, i have never been a wife before and only been in one relationship before him. i dont know how to do this.

i moved to the suburbs from the city and it is as if i have seen light for the first time. obviously there are differences between the two but it's just something special about increasing your quality of life when you just move 30 minutes outside of the city. since my experience has been very short so far i will wait until my 6 month mark to write a full blog post about it.

lastly, i got a new job. its going....good. its all still so new and i feel like its going to take me some time to get used to it. its my first publishing job and although im not screwing things up i do feel like i have a lot more to learn. but hey, thats why im there. to learn.

now im here. we are snowed in and had nothing to do. i really dont even know what i wanted to say when i came on here. i was actually editing videos for my YouTube channel. i super behind in videos. i left my tripod at my mother's house during the holidays. anyway, if you are still reading this by now kudos to you. you enjoy boring meaningless things. lol

i'll be back. sometime soon. i  will even set an alarm for myself to remember to write more often.

bye

the hunt

i feel that as americans we are always on the hunt.

no matter what part of our life we are in our minds are set on seek, conquer and kill (not as literally).

i live in new york city and everywhere i go there are people who are constantly on the move and thinking about the next. no one ever takes a moment to relax and just breathe.

i have found myself to slowly, or quickly become on of these people. someone who is always doing something. focusing on multiple things at once and always on the watch of someone else going after what i want.

i can be in the gym and if i am on the treadmill next to someone running at 5.0 mph i will bump mine up to 5.2 mph just because i dont want her to out run me. i dont even know that woman.

grocery shopping is a sport all its own. there is literally an apocalyptic scare every friday and everyone in the city is fighting for the last pint of strawberries at trader joes.

the trains are another issue. it is always crowded and people waiting to get on still seem to think that it is a good idea to crowd rush those getting off. you would think that after years of subway riding these people lunkheads would get it. but no. poor tourists.

and currently i am job hunting..shh..its a secret. but honestly who its always applying to jobs. however i feel like i am always checking job boards like an unwanted pregnancy test. and if i get an interview i stalk my email for a follow-up like as if its my instagram crush.

the point is, im tired of hunting and watching people hunt. the shit just gets old after a while.

Face of the Day

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Face of the Day

Foundation- Makeup forever mat velvet #75
Powder- Maybelline fit me 355 coconut
Eyes- Elf 55 eyeshadow palette
Liner- NYC liquid liner 888 Pearlized Black
Lashes-NYC 847 Extreme Black
Brows- Wet n Wild brow pencil 649 mink brown
Lips -NYC 320 Mahogany

Drugstore Beauty Haul!

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Hi everyone! So on the other day on my YouTube channel I did my first ever drugstore beauty haul and I figured that it would be really cool to share it here. Plus it's a really cool way to expand my content on my blog. So I hope you guys enjoy!

These products were purchased at a drugstore in NYC called Duane Reade and they are as follows:

Nail polish: Maybelline Color Show in  Plum Paradise 280- On Sale for $2.49
Lips: NYC: 320 Mahogany and 304 Mocha- Both $0.99
Eyes: Wet n Wild 650D Purple/Violet eyeliner_$0.99, 157 Copper Shimmer Eye Pencil, 156 Blue Shimmer Eye Pencil- Both $1.19

Bryant Park~May22, 2013

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This has to be my favorite park in the city so far. I try to go everyday as long as the weather is nice. When I'm here I pretend that I am  in sunny California. Just an hour or so of free thinking, pigeon watching and warm sun. If you ever visit NYC go to Bryant Park. I promise its worth it. I will make sure I take pictures of it at night next time, because it is just as beautiful.

My 25th Birthday Celebration!

http://youtu.be/_DGA_eS1pXU

Last night of being 24 never felt so good!!

My Trip to the Museum of Natural History

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Hi everyone! I took a trip to the Museum of Natural History a few weeks ago and I forgot to post the photos. So, here you go! Hope you enjoy! If you want to see more on my trip there check out my vlog about it at NappyNikki Vlogs  http://youtu.be/9kvxpBDAK1Y.

i don't enjoy video games, so why would i play yours

Remember that guy Dude? The one I met a month before I moved to NYC and the one who disappeared for a month. Well, it seems as if he might have to take an L, that’s a loss to those of you not hip. I know your probably wondering, “Why, what happened?” But as expected he has dropped the ball once again.

To give a little background, the last time I saw him was last Monday and since we both work in Manhattan I decided to make an effort and see him while we were both in the city at once. It wasn’t anything special just a short casual visit. As I was getting ready to leave he says that he wants to take me out to dinner over the weekend. I don’t show it then but I get excited saying to myself, “Finally, this nigga is stepping up.” Needless to say the weekend came and it went and I had no dinner, call or text. I believe it was Sunday night that I actually spoke to him. I had two missed calls from him 12:30 am and 2:17 am, so I guess I should say Monday morning. I returned the phone call because what could be so important for you to call me at 2:17 in the damn morning. As it turns out, wasn’t shit important. I asked what happened to the dinner plans and all he said was, “I’ll tell you in person”. In person? What the fuck is that about? Then he goes on and on to make promises about shit that he know wont happen. I proceed to reply to each statement with an “Uh huh.” or a “Sure.”

I have never been the type to make a big deal out of small things. Mainly because I hate drama and the only piece of drama that allow to enter my life are reality shows. I also can normally be more patient than the average person but there are times when I reach my limit of acceptable bullshit. So, unfortunately I have to let this one go and get his shit together. I have been patient enough, kind enough and needless to say a very understanding woman about this whole thing. I don’t believe in kicking a person while they’re down so I will just quietly leave this situation while it is still in a somewhat good place.

Now, I have decided that instead of thinking of the worst possible scenario like…maybe he dropped his phone on a subway track. Or maybe he was pushed on a subway track. Maybe he is married and forgot to tell me. Maybe he wasn’t sure that I was sure that he was sure that he wanted to date me. Maybe the one time we had sex was too amazing for him to handle for a second time. Maybe he didn’t like that I don’t eat animals. Maybe he was waiting for the perfect time to cancel on me for the second time. Or maybe he just couldn’t stand to be happy….oh what the hell, I will think the worst possible thing. It would be ass backwards if I don’t.

I will however take a lesson, several lessons, away from this entire situation. They are as follows:

1. If a guy tells you that his last girlfriend cheated on him but there is no way he is still pissed by it, don’t listen to him. He just said that so you can think that she didn’t take his balls when she left with his heart.


2. If a guy repeatedly cancels plans with you and then acts like those plans never existed, act like you forgot too.


3. If a guy calls you at 2:17 in the morning with some bullshit about why he stood you up, put the phone on speaker so that you and your girlfriends can laugh at his ass.


4. If a guy always calls you with the “I just woke up voice” pretend as if you dropped acid right before he called.


5. If a guy insists that he forgot your last name even though your name and number are both saved in his phone, he probably is telling the truth because he’s an idiot.

Don’t misunderstand me people, I did like him. I also still find him very sexy. However, playing games and wasting my time is something I don’t appreciate or tolerate. I have always been a very vocal person and that will never change.

until there's a ring on it

Sometimes you have to just roll with the punches and see how things will turn out.

It is a known fact that I am a single female living in NYC and eagerly awaiting for my prince charming to come in a sweep me off my feet. It is also a known fact that the McDreamy’s and McSteamy’s aren’t flooding the streets. So instead of waiting for that part of my life to begin I will continue to have the fun that I am obligated to have.

I currently have two men in my life that I would without a doubt consider potential boyfriends. I have been friends with the first guy for about 6 years.  I will call him Guy. We met during my college years and immediately clicked. We have a pretty interesting history and have definitely been there for each other during some crazy times. For about a  year we lost touch but for the past year we have been talking more and getting our friendship back to where it used to be. Now this all sounds happy and magical but I failed to mention that he lives 3500 miles away from me. Yes, 3500 and it will be that way for a few years. I have always cared very deeply for Guy, but our timing has never been perfect. Plus, we are such great friends that I don’t even think labeling our friendship or forcing it into something that it’s not is the best idea.

The second guy is the new kid on the block. I like to call him “dude”. I met Dude a month before I moved to NY. He is absolutely everything that I am looking for in a man. He is very tall, buff, funny, responsible, handsome, smart and a very hard worker. He is also the sweetest thing ever. We talked on the phone for about a month before our first date and after meeting him on our first date I liked him even more. Since then we talked everyday and hung out quite often. That was until the day before Thanksgiving. We were scheduled to go out on a date. A date that I planned and made reservations for. We talked two days prior and everything was ok and still in check. However, when the time came for us to go out he was a no show. Not a call, text or even a fucking smoke signal. For days and at least two weeks I tried to contact him. I honestly didn’t know what to think. Was he not interested? Did he die? What? So after two weeks and I didn’t hear from him I gave up. I took it as a lost. Now it is a little over a month later and he suddenly pops back up and we are back at square one. (I would go into full detail about what happened with him for that month but that’s too much for right now, but it obviously wasn’t anything that made me no longer interested.) I was really feeling him before so why not see where are friendship goes. The point is that now we are starting over, which in some aspects is bitter sweet for me. But it only makes sense.

Besides those two there are other random men that I meet on a daily basis, people on the street, in the gym, and at functions; but none of them are anything special.

Some people would consider the above information a bit scandalous. Fortunately, I believe that myself and women alike have every right to be that way. If a woman doesn’t have a boyfriend or husband then they have every right to weigh there options and make a wise choice on who would be the better mate for them. There is nothing than being in relationship with one person and thinking about what could have been or should have been with someone else. Now I’m not saying that I am making sexy time with more than one guy at one time, although the NY guy and I have had sex once and I most certainly wouldn’t mind a replay.

But like I said, until there’s a ring on it I am just going with the flow.