http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XC0hSjE28MI
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qjF2uqXyNPw
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ao1NYHnn_t4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9zjZkN3k9kY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OUCqg_zlDR4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lnhUTHx95xo
Friday, April 18, 2014
Tuesday, April 15, 2014
THE shy EXTROVERT
I'm a shy extrovert.
On April 9, 2014, I was asked to speak at my graduate programs student appreciation dinner. Initially I felt very comfortable but as days got closer my nerves began to get the best of me. This feeling of nervousness to speak in front of a crowd was very unfamiliar to me. I am the oldest of four girls, own a YouTube channel and love conversing with people. Before tonight I honestly can't remember the last time I felt uncomfortable in a room full of people. Then I think about my life as it is now and things that have changed about me as a woman.
In college I was always a talker. Participated in poetry slams, always raised my hand for question and answer sessions and even took part in a hot dog eating contest. My world revolved around making people come together through smiles, love and laughter. If you ask my mom she would tell you that I came out the womb chatting with my doctor. So it's surprising to have the feeling of fear in my chest as I began to speak in front of my peers and guests at this dinner.
As the chair of my department began to announce me and my fellow classmate my heart literally raced in my chest. I mean I felt as though I were having a panic attack. I kept reaching for my glass of wine to calm my nerves but it didn't help. All I could do was stake deep breath and prepare for what could be the most embarrassing moment of my graduate career. As my classmate is speak I take out my note cards to make final adjustments. By the time I know it she is walking back to our table and my name is being called. I feel as though death is upon me and I can't for the life of me figure out why. Upon informing the group that I am extremely nervous and get halfway through my speech my nerves are calmed and I don't even use my prepared notes anymore. I can finally breathe and enjoy the view.
As always I question whether or not you guys get the point of what I am trying to say.
Not that it matters. I'm just opening my brain.
***excuse any typos***
On April 9, 2014, I was asked to speak at my graduate programs student appreciation dinner. Initially I felt very comfortable but as days got closer my nerves began to get the best of me. This feeling of nervousness to speak in front of a crowd was very unfamiliar to me. I am the oldest of four girls, own a YouTube channel and love conversing with people. Before tonight I honestly can't remember the last time I felt uncomfortable in a room full of people. Then I think about my life as it is now and things that have changed about me as a woman.
In college I was always a talker. Participated in poetry slams, always raised my hand for question and answer sessions and even took part in a hot dog eating contest. My world revolved around making people come together through smiles, love and laughter. If you ask my mom she would tell you that I came out the womb chatting with my doctor. So it's surprising to have the feeling of fear in my chest as I began to speak in front of my peers and guests at this dinner.
As the chair of my department began to announce me and my fellow classmate my heart literally raced in my chest. I mean I felt as though I were having a panic attack. I kept reaching for my glass of wine to calm my nerves but it didn't help. All I could do was stake deep breath and prepare for what could be the most embarrassing moment of my graduate career. As my classmate is speak I take out my note cards to make final adjustments. By the time I know it she is walking back to our table and my name is being called. I feel as though death is upon me and I can't for the life of me figure out why. Upon informing the group that I am extremely nervous and get halfway through my speech my nerves are calmed and I don't even use my prepared notes anymore. I can finally breathe and enjoy the view.
As always I question whether or not you guys get the point of what I am trying to say.
Not that it matters. I'm just opening my brain.
***excuse any typos***
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