About a year ago I met this guy while I was in AmeriCorps NCCC. Initially I didn’t even know who he was. I just knew that he was on the team of my team leaders boyfriend. We had done a few projects together and even worked side by side, yet I didn’t know who he was. And this is not because I was ignoring him it was just the fact that he was really quiet. I honestly don’t remember him ever saying a word, well not to me at least. Anyway, our teams went out to dinner once and we had a little conversation but nothing serious. What I did notice about him was his ability to make me laugh.
Anyway, our teams had received new projects and so we didnt see each other for 2 months. But one day he contacts me and begins to show an interest in talking to me. He was very sweet about it, so my interest grew just as quickly. Our friendship quickly grew into a spiral of a mess. Good, great and bad. Being in AmeriCorps together created an understanding between the two of us. And like many AmeriCorps romances that develop while you’re serving, the length and actuality of it is never really clear. But for some reason I like to think the opposite.
Although our relationship is best just being friends, I know this person will always be apart of my life. Even more so now, because we will be living in the same city later this year. But he remains to be this person that I can trust. That I can be myself and look completely stupid and not feel embarrassed or ashamed. He is the friend that I can say what I really feel and not judge me. The friend that when I need to hear the truth he tells me. The friend that gets mad at me for something stupid I do, but doesn’t hold it against me. The friend that I hope to grow old with. So that one day we can look back on all of this and have a good laugh.
The point is, humans always feel the need to quickly dismiss people from their lives, especially when things get tough. Its like they give up after one failure. We build up this mentality that we don’t need people in our lives. And that’s total BS. I don’t know what I would be without certain people in my life. I will never pretend like I don’t need someone. As humans we mentally and emotionally need the comfort of other to get by. That’s that human nature.
I have grown to love this person for more than what he shows me and what others may say about him. I love him because of what I know he can amount to. The man that he is growing in to. One that has a good heart and sweet soul. But he knows…
if youre a goof, im a goof
nikki
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