Long Time, Eh?

It's been a really long time since I have written something on here and at the moment I still have no clue what to write about.

A couple of months ago one of my dear foodie/college friends committed suicide and since then my life has been a little off. I'm not exactly sure of how long I have been in this creative funk but I have had no interest in writing or recording YouTube videos. Every time I went to write something I would immediately lose interest, save the draft and never return to finish it. That happened for about a month and I finally feel as if I have things to talk about.

Losing a friend can really take a toll on you. I am the type of person the represses the feeling of grief. The only way I know how to cope with things without suffering from a panic attack is ignoring them. My boyfriend has expressed to me several times that is no way to deal with things, that which I am well aware of. However, it's what works best for me at the moment. I slowly come to realization that the person that I lost is actually gone. It's strange even to write those things and make them real. More so painful than strange.

The point however is that I am making an effort to find inspiration again. I miss writing so much. It's one way that I can say whatever I want, whenever I want and people can't judge me. If they do I will still say whatever I want and ignore them.

So now, here I am, writing to you, my readers. I hope that you all are well and enjoying your Holiday season. I will return in the coming week with more verbal spillage.

TTYS!

Nikki